An inseparable tandem.
In my heart, lies a man who would love me until the end of time.
In my heart, lies a man who would love me until the end of time.
Steps on an airplane
I have never ridden an airplane before in my whole entire life. But this summer, I'll be able to have my first flight. International flight, that is. Yes, I know, finally, I'm about to step on an airplane for the first time. So obviously, I should feel giddy and all, right? However, I don't feel giddy that much. I don't even want to go yet. Well, I know there's a reason why I don't feel excited. It's because.. I don't want to leave yet. It's too early. I want to spend the rest of the vacation with my special someone. I still keep wondering, though. A few months back, I was slightly sobbing because I wanted to go elsewhere for a vacation; I wanted to go to another country.. I wanted to travel so bad. But now, I've already got the opportunity and it's already final. It's sure that we're going. But how come I don't feel excited? I guess I do feel a little excited - because I want to know what it feels like to be in another country, especially in the United States of America.
By the way, our flight is on Wednesday, May 12 at 10:30 in the evening. I can't wait to ride an airplane! I'm really going to miss my honeybunch though. I'll miss our 2nd month and his 17th birthday. Oh bummerr. Our arrival will be on the 1st of June. I can't wait to go home by then, for sure! Because I can't live a day without talking to him. My day's just incomplete without him. Things aren't the same. Oh gosh. I hope I survive! Plus, I don't want myself crying at the airport or in the airplane or in SF/LA. I guess I'm just going to hide somewhere private, most likely in the bathroom and burst out all the tears I've been keeping. I'm really going to miss him. Seriously.
I just wish my trip to San Fransisco or Los Angeles would be happy, fun and worth it! I guess 18 days with my mother in a different country would be enjoyable, I think. HAHA. I hope and pray. Hm. So, what do you want me to bring home for you? LULZ. Just kidding, foo! :P
By the way, our flight is on Wednesday, May 12 at 10:30 in the evening. I can't wait to ride an airplane! I'm really going to miss my honeybunch though. I'll miss our 2nd month and his 17th birthday. Oh bummerr. Our arrival will be on the 1st of June. I can't wait to go home by then, for sure! Because I can't live a day without talking to him. My day's just incomplete without him. Things aren't the same. Oh gosh. I hope I survive! Plus, I don't want myself crying at the airport or in the airplane or in SF/LA. I guess I'm just going to hide somewhere private, most likely in the bathroom and burst out all the tears I've been keeping. I'm really going to miss him. Seriously.
I just wish my trip to San Fransisco or Los Angeles would be happy, fun and worth it! I guess 18 days with my mother in a different country would be enjoyable, I think. HAHA. I hope and pray. Hm. So, what do you want me to bring home for you? LULZ. Just kidding, foo! :P
Posted on Sunday, May 9, 2010 at 5:19 PM.
Goodbye, elementary. Hello, highschool!
I was once a pre-school student in MGP (Mother Goose Playskool). I learned how to write, read and do Mathematics. I graduated preparatory school 6 years ago. And I've struggled through those many obstacles I've experienced through the years. But then again, I managed to unravel them. Pre-school was our first step to success. However, elementary made us all realize how important every single day is, that we should no longer put aside things we can do right away. Yes, 6 years have flourished in all of our lives. We were taught almost everything. From ABC's to algebraic expressions, from the words "cat" and "dog" to enunciating difficult words.
Questions are perturbing in my mind. All those years that we've been through, every question pops into my head. Was it last year when I was a clueless and innocent child? Was it last year when I celebrated my 8th birthday in our classroom? Was it last year when Corinne and I offered flowers during our First Communion? Was it last year when I lost my friend 'cause she had to go to USA? Was it last year when I celebrated my 11th birthday at the mall? Was it last month when I became a 6th grader? Was it last month when our final exams ended? Was it last week when we started having graduation rehearsals? Was it 3 days ago when I just graduated from elementary? Yes, on the 27th of March, all 85 of us graduated from our Alma mater.
It is really dismaying that we are all down to separation. We've been through a lot, from the worst days to the best days. We were all young when we met each other. Still childish. From those happy smiles to silly laughs. After all those times we've spent together, our elementary life has come to an end. Nonetheless, it is not the end for all of us. Instead, it is a new beginning. A new chapter of our lives. We are now ready to face the next challenge that will soon occur. We must prepare for that day where we encounter new tasks.
In my 9 years stay at Mother Goose Special School System Incorporated, I've learned many things... That's a fact! And also, I learned a lot of life lessons.
A) Never give up. When I was a kid, I always tend to quit. I was certainly a quitter. But then, I realized that if I give my best in everything, I will succeed. And I did realize that giving up is the last thing every person should do. Because of those thoughts, I became persistent.
B) Always be happy. I was a cheerful child ever since. I love smiling! I'm a friendly person as well. But as life goes on, I feel as though, I have no reason to smile anymore. I ask myself sullenly, "Why should I even smile? The world is experiencing a global crisis!". On the other hand, I was able to recall all the memories when I was still little. I remembered how glorious every single day was. Since then, I told myself that I'd smile even if the world is at its end. I'll be happy no matter what! UPBEAT FOREVER. :)
C) Have faith in God. People usually have regrets and mistakes. Nobody could stop them from getting those. The fact is, everyone is imperfect. If you are wrong, try to accept that. Despite the fact that you exert effort in correcting that mistake of yours, you are still wrong. The bottom line is, no matter how awful your day is, or no matter how terrible it gets... Have faith in God. He gives you all the strength you need in every routine you do every single day. That's why we are supposed to worship Him and let us all thank Him for all the blessings He has given us.
There are countless people to thank. Teachers, advisers and simply friends who we met in school. I am so grateful to have you in my life. I also thank my parents, not only for giving me a wonderful life, but also for loving me all the time. I'll miss all of my schoolmates and other friends, too. They made me smile whenever they wave at me. And even a simple "hello" could make me smile. Thanks for everything, schoolmates! My teachers have been all great mentors. They honed all of our talents. And I couldn't show enough appreciation for all the things they have done to us. Once again, I express my gratitude to all teachers! For giving us superb education. Especially to our principal, Ms. Julia M. Palaroan for making us all grow into magnificent learners.
Lastly, to my dear batchmates, you don't know how blissful I am to be your classmate, partner-in-crime, laughing machine and most importantly, your full time friend. Don't worry, friends. All the memories are kept and treasured in my heart. I will never forget anything, not even a single minute we've spent! I would certainly miss all of you. Although, I promise that I would always cherish those precious moments. No matter what happens, we will always remain as friends. As we go on, we remember all the times we had together. And as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever. We were little children before, so naive, so inquisitive and as time goes by, we've undergone adolescence. But now, we have graduated from our beloved school, MGSSSI. And I remind you once again, this is not the end yet... This is just the beginning.
CONGRATULATIONS, BATCH 2008-2009! I love you guys so much! :)
Questions are perturbing in my mind. All those years that we've been through, every question pops into my head. Was it last year when I was a clueless and innocent child? Was it last year when I celebrated my 8th birthday in our classroom? Was it last year when Corinne and I offered flowers during our First Communion? Was it last year when I lost my friend 'cause she had to go to USA? Was it last year when I celebrated my 11th birthday at the mall? Was it last month when I became a 6th grader? Was it last month when our final exams ended? Was it last week when we started having graduation rehearsals? Was it 3 days ago when I just graduated from elementary? Yes, on the 27th of March, all 85 of us graduated from our Alma mater.
It is really dismaying that we are all down to separation. We've been through a lot, from the worst days to the best days. We were all young when we met each other. Still childish. From those happy smiles to silly laughs. After all those times we've spent together, our elementary life has come to an end. Nonetheless, it is not the end for all of us. Instead, it is a new beginning. A new chapter of our lives. We are now ready to face the next challenge that will soon occur. We must prepare for that day where we encounter new tasks.
In my 9 years stay at Mother Goose Special School System Incorporated, I've learned many things... That's a fact! And also, I learned a lot of life lessons.
A) Never give up. When I was a kid, I always tend to quit. I was certainly a quitter. But then, I realized that if I give my best in everything, I will succeed. And I did realize that giving up is the last thing every person should do. Because of those thoughts, I became persistent.
B) Always be happy. I was a cheerful child ever since. I love smiling! I'm a friendly person as well. But as life goes on, I feel as though, I have no reason to smile anymore. I ask myself sullenly, "Why should I even smile? The world is experiencing a global crisis!". On the other hand, I was able to recall all the memories when I was still little. I remembered how glorious every single day was. Since then, I told myself that I'd smile even if the world is at its end. I'll be happy no matter what! UPBEAT FOREVER. :)
C) Have faith in God. People usually have regrets and mistakes. Nobody could stop them from getting those. The fact is, everyone is imperfect. If you are wrong, try to accept that. Despite the fact that you exert effort in correcting that mistake of yours, you are still wrong. The bottom line is, no matter how awful your day is, or no matter how terrible it gets... Have faith in God. He gives you all the strength you need in every routine you do every single day. That's why we are supposed to worship Him and let us all thank Him for all the blessings He has given us.
There are countless people to thank. Teachers, advisers and simply friends who we met in school. I am so grateful to have you in my life. I also thank my parents, not only for giving me a wonderful life, but also for loving me all the time. I'll miss all of my schoolmates and other friends, too. They made me smile whenever they wave at me. And even a simple "hello" could make me smile. Thanks for everything, schoolmates! My teachers have been all great mentors. They honed all of our talents. And I couldn't show enough appreciation for all the things they have done to us. Once again, I express my gratitude to all teachers! For giving us superb education. Especially to our principal, Ms. Julia M. Palaroan for making us all grow into magnificent learners.
Lastly, to my dear batchmates, you don't know how blissful I am to be your classmate, partner-in-crime, laughing machine and most importantly, your full time friend. Don't worry, friends. All the memories are kept and treasured in my heart. I will never forget anything, not even a single minute we've spent! I would certainly miss all of you. Although, I promise that I would always cherish those precious moments. No matter what happens, we will always remain as friends. As we go on, we remember all the times we had together. And as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever. We were little children before, so naive, so inquisitive and as time goes by, we've undergone adolescence. But now, we have graduated from our beloved school, MGSSSI. And I remind you once again, this is not the end yet... This is just the beginning.
CONGRATULATIONS, BATCH 2008-2009! I love you guys so much! :)
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
Labels: beginning, elementary, end, goodbye, graduation, gratitude, happiness, highschool, life lessons, love, mgsssi
Posted on Monday, March 30, 2009 at 9:40 AM.
New Year's Eve
I never thought a new year would make us all tense and under pressure. Why, you asked? I think you can't consider having a fire during the new year's eve a normal thing to happen, right? Yes, it happened around 12AM here in Tambac. Luckily, the fire didn't cause any damage at all. And good thing there weren't any houses in the place where the fire was. I can see the teamwork in the people of Tambac because of what happened this midnight. I've seen their cooperation, they worked all together just to put the fire out. It was really heartening that everyone did everything just to make a disaster disappear. And I am also thankful that no one was harmed and no one got disheartened because of this fire.
My mom, also my brother, and most of us, were all agitated of what happened. Although, we were really lucky that the fire stopped. My mom called the fire station, too. In the end, we all laughed about it. Because, our neighbor also called the fire station, not only mom. And by the time the fire stopped, two fire trucks came to the compound. It was really a funny prank! :))
My new year's eve has always been boring, in my opinion. Despite the fact that we have fireworks and we have a lot of food, I still find it boring. I don't talk, I don't laugh, I don't scream or something. Every new year's eve, there are lots of kids outside our house because we have this party thing. And of course, our neighbors are here, kids and others. Since I don't go out of the house, all of us aren't close to each other. But I used to play with them here in our garden. But when I grew up, obviously, I stopped playing and I started staying inside the house all the time. To tell you the truth, if it weren't for food, I'd be having an awful new year's eve. Haha.
Just to make things straightforward, I would like to express my gratitude to all the people who made my 2008 an amazing year and a year full of peace, love and happiness. I'm also showing appreciation to all those who did wrong things to me, or my friends. I'm now forgiving each and everyone of you. And I, myself, am apologizing for all the unpleasant things that I've done to you guys. I hope you will all accept my apology. Lastly, I would like to tell you that even though I had my worst days last year, I still want to tell you all that I love you from the bottom of my heart. Between the sadness and joy, I'll still share some love no matter what happens.
That's all. Thank you for everything. And.. Happy New Year! May all of you have an ecstatic 2009! Let's welcome 2009 with all of the hospitality we've got! (:
My mom, also my brother, and most of us, were all agitated of what happened. Although, we were really lucky that the fire stopped. My mom called the fire station, too. In the end, we all laughed about it. Because, our neighbor also called the fire station, not only mom. And by the time the fire stopped, two fire trucks came to the compound. It was really a funny prank! :))
My new year's eve has always been boring, in my opinion. Despite the fact that we have fireworks and we have a lot of food, I still find it boring. I don't talk, I don't laugh, I don't scream or something. Every new year's eve, there are lots of kids outside our house because we have this party thing. And of course, our neighbors are here, kids and others. Since I don't go out of the house, all of us aren't close to each other. But I used to play with them here in our garden. But when I grew up, obviously, I stopped playing and I started staying inside the house all the time. To tell you the truth, if it weren't for food, I'd be having an awful new year's eve. Haha.
Just to make things straightforward, I would like to express my gratitude to all the people who made my 2008 an amazing year and a year full of peace, love and happiness. I'm also showing appreciation to all those who did wrong things to me, or my friends. I'm now forgiving each and everyone of you. And I, myself, am apologizing for all the unpleasant things that I've done to you guys. I hope you will all accept my apology. Lastly, I would like to tell you that even though I had my worst days last year, I still want to tell you all that I love you from the bottom of my heart. Between the sadness and joy, I'll still share some love no matter what happens.
That's all. Thank you for everything. And.. Happy New Year! May all of you have an ecstatic 2009! Let's welcome 2009 with all of the hospitality we've got! (:
Labels: apologies, fire, fireworks, food, love, new year, thanks
Posted on Thursday, January 1, 2009 at 6:40 PM.
such a silly game we play.
You are my sweetest downfall.I didn't expect that love will end so soon. I haven't thought of a decision yet. But I think I know what to do now. And yes, I'm letting the whole world know how much I have suffered.
Never give up. I told you I won't, but why did I seem to be desperate? Why did I become truly hopeless at a time like this? Is it just really that disheartening to see you looking at me with those sinister eyes? I can't force myself to just accept all the pain. No! That would be inappropriate. I must fight. I should show all of them that I've not suffered. I'm still alive, and still being faithful. But then.. Why did I become feeble? A strong person turned into a vulnerable one? I know it's a bit hilarious, but it's real. How come?
I can't keep all of these grudges forever, can I? I guess I should just deal with it.The fact that he doesn't love me anymore and he likes this new girl next door. I know that you can compare a lot of things between me and that girl. However, I'm DIFFERENT. That's for sure! No matter what you say about me.. I'll always be the same. Clarisse clarisse clarisse. That's me, and I will never change at all. Although, I can change. And I will change.. Just for you.
Oh my. I remember the time when I kissed you on the cheek. That day was very unforgettable, a day to be treasured! That was also the day when you hugged me all of a sudden and you told me something. Something that I'll never ever forget. I love you. Even if those three words are really short, it still means a lot of things. Things which are indescribable. You can't ever compare "I love you" to some other words you know. Because those three words are the most precious words that I've ever known.
It's hard to say this but, I think I'm still in love with you. But now that I know you stopped loving me, I guess all of my hope ran away. It suddenly went away like a blink of an eye. It's really complicated, I don't know how to explain this. Yes, I still love you. I just don't know how to admit it and I don't know how to shout it to everyone. I don't like you anymore. I guess I don't. I stopped. I took a pause. I think it has been too long for me to be waiting in despair. I'm looking like a stupid retard. I don't care. As long as I love you, I'm happy with that. I always ask myself, why did I like Hensen M. Espinoza? Is he that special for that matter? I guess not. He's just like everyone else, a human being. Actually, he's different. Why? He made me love him. He knows how to make people, in fact, ME/Clarisse, fall in love. Nope, he didn't make me obsessed/addicted. But he did make me realize how unique he is in an odd way. (:
Hensen, I give up. Always remember this though, if you still love me, well, baby I'm just here.. Waiting. And don't ever forget this one.. My love has never changed. AT ALL. Besides, until now, I'm still waiting for that stupid answer! LOL. And I just gave up.. Because, I don't want to be heartbroken.. Again. So, I hope you don't regret meeting me or something. Have a happy life! Oh by the way, let's all be friends! No hard feelings, mkay? (:
Never give up. I told you I won't, but why did I seem to be desperate? Why did I become truly hopeless at a time like this? Is it just really that disheartening to see you looking at me with those sinister eyes? I can't force myself to just accept all the pain. No! That would be inappropriate. I must fight. I should show all of them that I've not suffered. I'm still alive, and still being faithful. But then.. Why did I become feeble? A strong person turned into a vulnerable one? I know it's a bit hilarious, but it's real. How come?
I can't keep all of these grudges forever, can I? I guess I should just deal with it.The fact that he doesn't love me anymore and he likes this new girl next door. I know that you can compare a lot of things between me and that girl. However, I'm DIFFERENT. That's for sure! No matter what you say about me.. I'll always be the same. Clarisse clarisse clarisse. That's me, and I will never change at all. Although, I can change. And I will change.. Just for you.
Oh my. I remember the time when I kissed you on the cheek. That day was very unforgettable, a day to be treasured! That was also the day when you hugged me all of a sudden and you told me something. Something that I'll never ever forget. I love you. Even if those three words are really short, it still means a lot of things. Things which are indescribable. You can't ever compare "I love you" to some other words you know. Because those three words are the most precious words that I've ever known.
It's hard to say this but, I think I'm still in love with you. But now that I know you stopped loving me, I guess all of my hope ran away. It suddenly went away like a blink of an eye. It's really complicated, I don't know how to explain this. Yes, I still love you. I just don't know how to admit it and I don't know how to shout it to everyone. I don't like you anymore. I guess I don't. I stopped. I took a pause. I think it has been too long for me to be waiting in despair. I'm looking like a stupid retard. I don't care. As long as I love you, I'm happy with that. I always ask myself, why did I like Hensen M. Espinoza? Is he that special for that matter? I guess not. He's just like everyone else, a human being. Actually, he's different. Why? He made me love him. He knows how to make people, in fact, ME/Clarisse, fall in love. Nope, he didn't make me obsessed/addicted. But he did make me realize how unique he is in an odd way. (:
Hensen, I give up. Always remember this though, if you still love me, well, baby I'm just here.. Waiting. And don't ever forget this one.. My love has never changed. AT ALL. Besides, until now, I'm still waiting for that stupid answer! LOL. And I just gave up.. Because, I don't want to be heartbroken.. Again. So, I hope you don't regret meeting me or something. Have a happy life! Oh by the way, let's all be friends! No hard feelings, mkay? (:
Posted on Monday, November 24, 2008 at 1:50 PM.
you weren't there, you never were.
And now I'm about to express my feelings and tell you how I'm doing right now.
Never thought a tedious day would become a day full of disappointment. I was looking for something to do that time because I was really bored. And suddenly, Ken sent me a message in Y!M. He told me he's got bad news about Hensen. I convinced him to tell me what that was. Then, he told me all about that catastrophe. At first, I didn't care at all. I mean, why should I? But when the story got longer, I didn't expect to forget to breathe. I didn't really forget, I just can't breathe that time. It was like having an asthma attack. Only worse.
My heart was going to explode. But I asked myself, Why should I let it tear into pieces.. Again? It has already torn apart, only scotch-taped back into pieces. I am just hiding the pain that I received because of this disastrous thing that happened. I don't need to cry, my mind told me not to. My heart says, don't give up. However, my head keeps on telling me that I should. I'll just be heartbroken all over and over again. Or maybe we're really just not meant to be.
I want to leave him be. Although, it really is difficult to do so. I need to forget about him and forget all those times we spent together. But it's not easy to do such a thing. Only an idiot can do that. Yes, I've tried moving on a couple of times. What happened? Nothing, nothing at all. My love for him will never change and has never changed. It's the same like before. Unlike other people, I'm different. I know I didn't cry, I didn't yell, and I didn't go crazy. But I assure you, my heart is damaged right at the moment. I am calling for help and I do need people to comfort me.
Well, I have to say, I have no idea what I should do. Some say I should talk to him and tell him how I truly feel. Others told me I should let him go and just give up. Honestly, people know Clarisse. She's a courageous girl who never gives up. I think I'm becoming weak, though. Weaker and weaker, no longer strong. Every time I see him, it's like turning into a vulnerable person. From a person who's strong, only one glance can make him/her vulnerable. That's what I call heartbroken. It's hard to forgive. Also hard to forget. I have to admit though, I am a forgiving person. That's why I don't care who he likes. Because I don't have any rights to choose whom he should love and whom he shouldn't. I can't force him to love me and he can't force me to love him.
I don't have any time left to regret. It happened already, so why should I still whine? And who should I blame? Myself. It's my fault and there is no one to blame. I have been a stupid girl since then. I can't even answer the question why I liked him. I guess I was love-spelled or just plain in love. It's really hard to explain how it happened. It's too fast, after all those months of happiness, peace, and love, there came sadness, war, and pain.
I fell in love with a guy who doesn't care how it hurts. And it's really disheartening to accept the fact that he got tired of a person who still loves him after what he did to that person. People are turning into narcissists nowadays. They turned selfish and vain all of a sudden. They don't care about the feelings of others. They think they're always right and they think they're that special. Most of them are boastful and most of them just don't care about anything. They treat people like pets and slaves. But the thing is, THEY'RE NOT SOME KING/QUEEN that should be worshiped/praised. They're just like everyone else. A human being whom God created. That's that and we should all deal with it.
I don't know what else to say. There are too many words to describe my emotions right now and I can't let them out somewhat. I know you're getting my point. The bottom line is, I should fight for love and I shall never give up. Even though it's a risky thing to do, I'll do everything just to take all of those risks that I'm about to face. Go Clarisse!
DON'T GIVE UP ON LOVE.
HAVE FAITH... RESTART!
Never thought a tedious day would become a day full of disappointment. I was looking for something to do that time because I was really bored. And suddenly, Ken sent me a message in Y!M. He told me he's got bad news about Hensen. I convinced him to tell me what that was. Then, he told me all about that catastrophe. At first, I didn't care at all. I mean, why should I? But when the story got longer, I didn't expect to forget to breathe. I didn't really forget, I just can't breathe that time. It was like having an asthma attack. Only worse.
My heart was going to explode. But I asked myself, Why should I let it tear into pieces.. Again? It has already torn apart, only scotch-taped back into pieces. I am just hiding the pain that I received because of this disastrous thing that happened. I don't need to cry, my mind told me not to. My heart says, don't give up. However, my head keeps on telling me that I should. I'll just be heartbroken all over and over again. Or maybe we're really just not meant to be.
I want to leave him be. Although, it really is difficult to do so. I need to forget about him and forget all those times we spent together. But it's not easy to do such a thing. Only an idiot can do that. Yes, I've tried moving on a couple of times. What happened? Nothing, nothing at all. My love for him will never change and has never changed. It's the same like before. Unlike other people, I'm different. I know I didn't cry, I didn't yell, and I didn't go crazy. But I assure you, my heart is damaged right at the moment. I am calling for help and I do need people to comfort me.
Well, I have to say, I have no idea what I should do. Some say I should talk to him and tell him how I truly feel. Others told me I should let him go and just give up. Honestly, people know Clarisse. She's a courageous girl who never gives up. I think I'm becoming weak, though. Weaker and weaker, no longer strong. Every time I see him, it's like turning into a vulnerable person. From a person who's strong, only one glance can make him/her vulnerable. That's what I call heartbroken. It's hard to forgive. Also hard to forget. I have to admit though, I am a forgiving person. That's why I don't care who he likes. Because I don't have any rights to choose whom he should love and whom he shouldn't. I can't force him to love me and he can't force me to love him.
I don't have any time left to regret. It happened already, so why should I still whine? And who should I blame? Myself. It's my fault and there is no one to blame. I have been a stupid girl since then. I can't even answer the question why I liked him. I guess I was love-spelled or just plain in love. It's really hard to explain how it happened. It's too fast, after all those months of happiness, peace, and love, there came sadness, war, and pain.
I fell in love with a guy who doesn't care how it hurts. And it's really disheartening to accept the fact that he got tired of a person who still loves him after what he did to that person. People are turning into narcissists nowadays. They turned selfish and vain all of a sudden. They don't care about the feelings of others. They think they're always right and they think they're that special. Most of them are boastful and most of them just don't care about anything. They treat people like pets and slaves. But the thing is, THEY'RE NOT SOME KING/QUEEN that should be worshiped/praised. They're just like everyone else. A human being whom God created. That's that and we should all deal with it.
I don't know what else to say. There are too many words to describe my emotions right now and I can't let them out somewhat. I know you're getting my point. The bottom line is, I should fight for love and I shall never give up. Even though it's a risky thing to do, I'll do everything just to take all of those risks that I'm about to face. Go Clarisse!
DON'T GIVE UP ON LOVE.
HAVE FAITH... RESTART!
Posted on Sunday, November 9, 2008 at 1:28 PM.
You don’t listen to her, you don’t care how it hurts.
Yo. I just checked out my cup and realized that 'twas empty. I forgot that I drank all of the coffee. Woot, it's my addiction. But I really can't remember when the last time I drank coffee was. Hmr.
Hey, you wanna, you wanna.. wanna weekend! LOL. Yes, it's the one in Nickelodeon. I know I'm too old (hello, I'm just 12 for pete's sake!), I still watch cartoons. After all, I still have the rights to choose what channel I should watch, right?
It's Saturday. I woke up minutes ago and took breakfast. Hurriedly went to the PC and blog-hopped. Now, I'm typing this tedious blog. All of my blogs are boring, don't you think?
Well, I don't have plans yet for today. Although, I'll try predicting what I will do for today or for my weekend. Let me see..
You know I love you. :*)
xoxo, clare.
Hey, you wanna, you wanna.. wanna weekend! LOL. Yes, it's the one in Nickelodeon. I know I'm too old (hello, I'm just 12 for pete's sake!), I still watch cartoons. After all, I still have the rights to choose what channel I should watch, right?
It's Saturday. I woke up minutes ago and took breakfast. Hurriedly went to the PC and blog-hopped. Now, I'm typing this tedious blog. All of my blogs are boring, don't you think?
Well, I don't have plans yet for today. Although, I'll try predicting what I will do for today or for my weekend. Let me see..
- I have to practice, practice and practice my declamation. I want to win, you know! Practice makes perfect. ;)
- I probably should memorize Oration, too. And after I memorize it, I should start memorizing the Talumpati in Filipino. I want to join the one in Filipino as well.. :)
- Maybe (LOL, maybe) I'll review for the Bible Quiz Bee in YMCA. No promises. You know me, I'm lazy and whatnot. I might end up sleeping or just simply using this computer. :p
- I think we're going to the doctor today. Me & my mummay. I'm going to have a check-up for my eyes. Scaryy. I know I've told you that I want to wear glasses. But only for style and for the sake of fashion. Hahaha! Although, I think I'm regretting that I said that. Bcos my mom told me before, that wearing glasses is not good. Even betina told me that once you wore glasses you'll feel that you'll wear them forever. :o (wish me luck! i hope i wear reading glasses only, though)
- Help me oh help me. I need to finish the piece of Für Elise. And I really want to. However, I'm completely having a hard time on reading the notes. Yes, my teacher taught me how to read them, but wth? It's really confusing. :))
- Let's watch HSM3! I'm not certain that we'll watch. Actually, I have a feeling that we're not really going to. My brother doesn't want to watch. And no doubt about my mom will say yes in watching that movie. HAHA.
You know I love you. :*)
xoxo, clare.
Posted on Saturday, November 8, 2008 at 9:07 AM.
No, it's not too late to apologize.
He apologized.
YES NAMAN. WAITING FOR IT. I mean, he already did. He apologized last Friday. Remember? I thought he apologized but he doesn'tlove me anymore. But then, he text-messaged me only this Saturday. (Oct 18). He said 'Sorry' again. And of course, I accepted it and I told him that he should remember that I love him so much.
You know what he replied? (Ahh, oke). That made me feel that it's true, he doesn't love me anymore. While texting, I wasn't saying any "haha" or "lol". Oh yeah, I did. I said "Ohh. Haha."
Then he told me that he'll tell me something. And I asked him what was it. Guess what! He told me (in tagalog + english) "Urghh. Ito nalang.. Wait.. Um.. i love you. haha^^". Exactly like that! :PP
And man! I melted that time. Well, I was talking to Paolo on the phone when he texted so I was like telling Paolo that I was kinikilig. :)) And he was like "yeee". LMAOO.
And of course, I replied. Well, duh. I said "Ageh! Nakakatakot! Love you too. :)" HAHA. Yep, a cheesy and funny way, eh? :))
He also told me that he wants to talk to me in school. Tuesday, tomorrow! Lol. OHH. He told me (yesterday) that he's going to teach me how to play the guitar. Damn. :)) Well, it's not that I don't want to, actually I want to know how to play the guitar. He asked me if I want to, and I said yes. Blah blah blah. By the tree daw. :)) Whoo, tomorrow! Ngee. Lol.
Aah, whatever. Just happy to know that he still loves me. :)
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
YES NAMAN. WAITING FOR IT. I mean, he already did. He apologized last Friday. Remember? I thought he apologized but he doesn't
You know what he replied? (Ahh, oke). That made me feel that it's true, he doesn't love me anymore. While texting, I wasn't saying any "haha" or "lol". Oh yeah, I did. I said "Ohh. Haha."
Then he told me that he'll tell me something. And I asked him what was it. Guess what! He told me (in tagalog + english) "Urghh. Ito nalang.. Wait.. Um.. i love you. haha^^". Exactly like that! :PP
And man! I melted that time. Well, I was talking to Paolo on the phone when he texted so I was like telling Paolo that I was kinikilig. :)) And he was like "yeee". LMAOO.
And of course, I replied. Well, duh. I said "Ageh! Nakakatakot! Love you too. :)" HAHA. Yep, a cheesy and funny way, eh? :))
He also told me that he wants to talk to me in school. Tuesday, tomorrow! Lol. OHH. He told me (yesterday) that he's going to teach me how to play the guitar. Damn. :)) Well, it's not that I don't want to, actually I want to know how to play the guitar. He asked me if I want to, and I said yes. Blah blah blah. By the tree daw. :)) Whoo, tomorrow! Ngee. Lol.
Aah, whatever. Just happy to know that he still loves me. :)
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
Posted on Monday, October 20, 2008 at 7:35 PM.
thoughts
I've realized that friendship can end in just one blink of an eye. Many things had happened this school year just after three months. Friendships had been torn apart. People had changed. Things are new.
Our friendship has torn apart. But, I know that there is still a 100% possibility that we will be together again. But, whatever. I'm happy no matter who I'm with or even if everyone hates me. But, I have wondered. I have thoughts. I've realized something. Something that is really common and something that always happens. And I have this question to ask you, my friend.
Why our people different these days? Why do people stab other people's backs? Is it truly normal or is it them? Well, I noticed that a lot of people including me.. are back stabbed. Well, there are fights. And they get together, again. It just sucks. And I hate it. You fight, but then again, you apologize, acceptance and there you go, friends again. I know that being friends again is nice and whatsoever. But, isn't it ludicrous? Quarrels, and then you are friends again? Fight, friends, fight, friends. Damn. I'm sick of all those junk. If you're tired as well, I think my advice for you my friend is.. Stop being friends with people that you know that they're backstabber's.
I know it's not that easy doing it, and I know it's completely complicated, but probably it's the best thing to do. I mean, not all human-beings live just because of their friends. Am I right? A person told me so, and I realized.. Yes, it's true. I know and I believe that I could live without friends. But there are words in my mind. Which are "move on". An end always has a beginning. You can start again. Make new friends and I bet that you'll be closer than ever. Me? I've already moved on. I've got a lot of friends and our friendship (me & others) is fine. We still talk, we eat together. But I will no longer use other people just to make my "enemies" or "best friends" jealous or make them miss me. No, sir. I mean, that's old school, man. Why would I ever use people? And yes, I know that I did that before. But I regret doing this thing. That's why I decided on not doing it again. And I know several people who do this. I won't mention names because I'm not that wicked. Well, I just hope that they'll change. I hope that they will not use people just to get what they want. It's totally a wrong thing to do.
Hm. Friendship? There are many things that you can tell about this word. There can be fights, arguments. Envy? Hatred. And sometimes there's this word called sorrow. I know that you guys feel the pain inside and I know that you're just hiding it. I myself, I hide it. I don't want people to see me sad for they will try to cheer me up, but I know that it's useless. Well, many things have changed. First, I was friends with her. Then she is now friends with blah. I know. So weird. Friendship can end.. Very fast. I mean, very very fast. It's like throwing an old toy. Once you find a new one, you throw the old one up. Replaced. Ouch. Hurts, right? I know how it feels 'cause I felt it.
Maybe a lot of times, maybe a few times. It really doesn't matter at all. Why is there friendship? Why is there friendship if you just keep on fighting with each other? It never ends. Even if you try to stop, it would still happen. I try to stop, but there's no use. Arguments here, arguments there. They're everywhere!! Whatever you do, they're still there. Not only I, but I know that a lot of people have fights. I mean, who doesn't? Everyone has fights! Even if you don't think so, still, there are. Apologies, some are accepted, some are not. But, if you keep on apologizing, honey, what will happen to you? I rather be not forgiven than to be stupidly apologizing even if it's not my fault. I know, full of pride. But seriously, just keep apologizing? Are you kidding me? Yes, I know. You should apologize even though you don't feel like it. But, in my opinion, sometimes you just have to wait for them to do something they have to do. Some people are too forgiving, some don't show mercy. Maybe I'm one of them, maybe I'm part-time forgiving and part-time showing-no-mercy. Yes, I'm nice.. And I'm mean, at the same time.
The bottom line is, people, why do you ever befriend other people if you just keep on fighting with them? I mean, I'm tired of all those stupidity. I just hope everyone would stop arguing with each other. Stop all those fights and be friends. All of us are brothers and sisters. So, we should not argue with each other. Instead, we should love each other. No matter how much you hate people, you should still love them somewhat. Friendship can be a silly word. But friendship really means a lot of stuff. Special things, stupid things. What I know is, friendship is a treasure.
Love your neighbor as yourself.
Our friendship has torn apart. But, I know that there is still a 100% possibility that we will be together again. But, whatever. I'm happy no matter who I'm with or even if everyone hates me. But, I have wondered. I have thoughts. I've realized something. Something that is really common and something that always happens. And I have this question to ask you, my friend.
Why our people different these days? Why do people stab other people's backs? Is it truly normal or is it them? Well, I noticed that a lot of people including me.. are back stabbed. Well, there are fights. And they get together, again. It just sucks. And I hate it. You fight, but then again, you apologize, acceptance and there you go, friends again. I know that being friends again is nice and whatsoever. But, isn't it ludicrous? Quarrels, and then you are friends again? Fight, friends, fight, friends. Damn. I'm sick of all those junk. If you're tired as well, I think my advice for you my friend is.. Stop being friends with people that you know that they're backstabber's.
I know it's not that easy doing it, and I know it's completely complicated, but probably it's the best thing to do. I mean, not all human-beings live just because of their friends. Am I right? A person told me so, and I realized.. Yes, it's true. I know and I believe that I could live without friends. But there are words in my mind. Which are "move on". An end always has a beginning. You can start again. Make new friends and I bet that you'll be closer than ever. Me? I've already moved on. I've got a lot of friends and our friendship (me & others) is fine. We still talk, we eat together. But I will no longer use other people just to make my "enemies" or "best friends" jealous or make them miss me. No, sir. I mean, that's old school, man. Why would I ever use people? And yes, I know that I did that before. But I regret doing this thing. That's why I decided on not doing it again. And I know several people who do this. I won't mention names because I'm not that wicked. Well, I just hope that they'll change. I hope that they will not use people just to get what they want. It's totally a wrong thing to do.
Hm. Friendship? There are many things that you can tell about this word. There can be fights, arguments. Envy? Hatred. And sometimes there's this word called sorrow. I know that you guys feel the pain inside and I know that you're just hiding it. I myself, I hide it. I don't want people to see me sad for they will try to cheer me up, but I know that it's useless. Well, many things have changed. First, I was friends with her. Then she is now friends with blah. I know. So weird. Friendship can end.. Very fast. I mean, very very fast. It's like throwing an old toy. Once you find a new one, you throw the old one up. Replaced. Ouch. Hurts, right? I know how it feels 'cause I felt it.
Maybe a lot of times, maybe a few times. It really doesn't matter at all. Why is there friendship? Why is there friendship if you just keep on fighting with each other? It never ends. Even if you try to stop, it would still happen. I try to stop, but there's no use. Arguments here, arguments there. They're everywhere!! Whatever you do, they're still there. Not only I, but I know that a lot of people have fights. I mean, who doesn't? Everyone has fights! Even if you don't think so, still, there are. Apologies, some are accepted, some are not. But, if you keep on apologizing, honey, what will happen to you? I rather be not forgiven than to be stupidly apologizing even if it's not my fault. I know, full of pride. But seriously, just keep apologizing? Are you kidding me? Yes, I know. You should apologize even though you don't feel like it. But, in my opinion, sometimes you just have to wait for them to do something they have to do. Some people are too forgiving, some don't show mercy. Maybe I'm one of them, maybe I'm part-time forgiving and part-time showing-no-mercy. Yes, I'm nice.. And I'm mean, at the same time.
The bottom line is, people, why do you ever befriend other people if you just keep on fighting with them? I mean, I'm tired of all those stupidity. I just hope everyone would stop arguing with each other. Stop all those fights and be friends. All of us are brothers and sisters. So, we should not argue with each other. Instead, we should love each other. No matter how much you hate people, you should still love them somewhat. Friendship can be a silly word. But friendship really means a lot of stuff. Special things, stupid things. What I know is, friendship is a treasure.
Love your neighbor as yourself.
Labels: fights, friendship, love
Posted on Thursday, September 11, 2008 at 7:55 PM.
quotable quotes
bored.
i wanna be the girl
• he's scared to lose.
• the one he can't walk away from knowing she's mad at him.
• the one who can't fall asleep without.
• her voice being the last one he hears.
• the one he wouldn't know what to do without.
Do you have a map? I got lost in your eyes.
You'll be the iceburg. I'll be the titanic. And I'll go down on you.
My love for you grows, and it's starting to show.
Notice me please, I'm starting to get the love disease.
Everytime I see you.. I sneeze. Why? Because I'm allergic to LOVE.
you might think of me as some girl. but i'm the girl who took one look at you.
& fell harder for you than i've ever fallen for anyone in my entire life.
love is my drug; be my dealer.
&& if love is against the law, boy we'd be partners in crime.
it's a crazy thing called.. LOVE.
• he's scared to lose.
• the one he can't walk away from knowing she's mad at him.
• the one who can't fall asleep without.
• her voice being the last one he hears.
• the one he wouldn't know what to do without.
Do you have a map? I got lost in your eyes.
You'll be the iceburg. I'll be the titanic. And I'll go down on you.
My love for you grows, and it's starting to show.
Notice me please, I'm starting to get the love disease.
Everytime I see you.. I sneeze. Why? Because I'm allergic to LOVE.
you might think of me as some girl. but i'm the girl who took one look at you.
& fell harder for you than i've ever fallen for anyone in my entire life.
love is my drug; be my dealer.
&& if love is against the law, boy we'd be partners in crime.
it's a crazy thing called.. LOVE.
&& that's all. :)
Posted on Saturday, August 30, 2008 at 9:18 PM.
no matter what i do, i still love you.
I can't stop loving you.
I guess I've fallen in love. You're my obsession. I love you to death. I can't get you outta my mind. I got lost in your eyes.
Sometimes I get too emotional but I know I shouldn't be. I try not to love you, but it seems that I cannot. A heart wants what a heart wants.
It all started with something bad. And it ends up like this. Baby, I love you.
Our true love is true.
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.
You can't stop me, I can't stop you.
"I can't force myself NOT to love you. And I can't force you to LOVE me."
lalalalalove. you are my HERO. and i am your HEROINE. (:
LOVE. <3
I guess I've fallen in love. You're my obsession. I love you to death. I can't get you outta my mind. I got lost in your eyes.
Sometimes I get too emotional but I know I shouldn't be. I try not to love you, but it seems that I cannot. A heart wants what a heart wants.
It all started with something bad. And it ends up like this. Baby, I love you.
Our true love is true.
I want to do all the sweet things to you. Like, hold your hand, mess up your hair, kiss on the cheek, hug you to death and tell you how I truly feel.Do you know your love is the sweetest sin? Loving you is the best feeling ever.
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.
You can't stop me, I can't stop you.
"I can't force myself NOT to love you. And I can't force you to LOVE me."
lalalalalove. you are my HERO. and i am your HEROINE. (:
LOVE. <3
Labels: love
Posted on at 9:00 PM.
i've been wondering.
So there are a lot of questions that are floating in my mind. Thoughts to be pondered. Some answers to be reminisced. Well, I think I'm getting lost in reverie. Do you think I'm just squandering my time? But isn't it devastating to daydream once in a while? Hum.. Sometimes wondering a lot of things might give you a brain blast. *laughs*
I've been learning a lot of difficult words recently. That's why I'm spilling it out all of them in this blog. Heee. Well, at least I'm not being strident or something eh? Am I right? Okay, I'm just being inquisitive. As a matter of fact, I was an inquisitive girl ever since. HIHI!
Well, did you know that every single day of our very own lives, we have this thing called obstacles? We fight everyday for our own rights. We struggle for our own sakes. It's like battling in a scrimmage! But I can't believe that in this inevitable world, we can manage to live and relish every second we have. The gaiety of our lives. The vitality of every person.
But I know there are a lot of loiterers and sardonic people on Earth. They deserve to be punished, I know. But I also know that everyone deserves to be happy every friggin' millisecond there is! No one deserves to be sad, depressed or lonely! Everyone should enjoy and partay! Haha.
Everybody is loved by everybody. Love thee! Because all of the people are loved by our very own GOD. Praise the Lord! I love you, Jesus! :)
I've been learning a lot of difficult words recently. That's why I'm spilling it out all of them in this blog. Heee. Well, at least I'm not being strident or something eh? Am I right? Okay, I'm just being inquisitive. As a matter of fact, I was an inquisitive girl ever since. HIHI!
Well, did you know that every single day of our very own lives, we have this thing called obstacles? We fight everyday for our own rights. We struggle for our own sakes. It's like battling in a scrimmage! But I can't believe that in this inevitable world, we can manage to live and relish every second we have. The gaiety of our lives. The vitality of every person.
But I know there are a lot of loiterers and sardonic people on Earth. They deserve to be punished, I know. But I also know that everyone deserves to be happy every friggin' millisecond there is! No one deserves to be sad, depressed or lonely! Everyone should enjoy and partay! Haha.
Everybody is loved by everybody. Love thee! Because all of the people are loved by our very own GOD. Praise the Lord! I love you, Jesus! :)
Posted on Monday, August 18, 2008 at 6:07 PM.
in love? :x
oh yeah. totally inlove. :P I have lots of crushes, 'ya know. Wait, gimme 1 minute to count 'em. Okay, 8 crushes. haha :P But I thought it was 11. Oops, 9. + 1 = ten. hahaha. Crushes are normal to a lot of peeps. Do you agree? Of Course. You have a crush too, huh? haha. Though, A few months ago.. I didn't have any crush/es because I know that my heart would just be scotch-taped. But then again, WHO CARES? At least you're inlove. :] Well duh.. at least you're the one who was heartbroken. Not the one who broke someone else's heart. Back to topic. So, LOVE. I know, saying "i love you" is so easy. But, it's a lifetime to prove that you love somebody. Yeah. love love love. I realized that love isn't hard after all.
.. Second thought, it's hard. Because some peeps dont trust anyone. They don't actually believe that someone loves them. But, I say.. what are you waiting for? there's that person who truly loves you, and you're doing nothin? Wow. How stupid is that? Right? If I were you, don't let it go away. Duh, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity, mahn. So, don't let it fade away just because of your stupidity. Just always remember, that it will take decades to find your true love. So, go and love each other forever. <3
.. Second thought, it's hard. Because some peeps dont trust anyone. They don't actually believe that someone loves them. But, I say.. what are you waiting for? there's that person who truly loves you, and you're doing nothin? Wow. How stupid is that? Right? If I were you, don't let it go away. Duh, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity, mahn. So, don't let it fade away just because of your stupidity. Just always remember, that it will take decades to find your true love. So, go and love each other forever. <3
Labels: love
Posted on Sunday, March 9, 2008 at 1:03 PM.