An inseparable tandem.
In my heart, lies a man who would love me until the end of time.
In my heart, lies a man who would love me until the end of time.
Too many weaknesses.
Last Thursday, October 16, I fell down and cried.
Why? (Okay. I know it seems different that I cried but I just can't take it anymore.)
I cried because I fell down. Literally, yes. Because I was running towards the flag pole. My right foot twisted. Uhh, it's really hard to explain. I apologize. I'm not good of a story-teller.
Natapilok ako.
To make the story short.
So yeah. I was like "aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh !&@(#*". I kept on cursing that time. Sorry, sorry. But I just can't help but to do such a thing. I mean, it really hurt. For the second time, this time it hurt much more than the first. No idea why. But I think the difference between the two is that, the first one, my right foot twisted like in the front portion and this time, my foot twisted in the side part. Uhh, apologies, it's really confusing. Last time, I didn't fall. Actually I was able to sit and rest. This time, I fell. I lyed on the ground. Even my head touched the ground. I cried. I was whining, too. Paolo & Divino even laughed at me while I was crying. Harhar.
I guess I cried because of me being weak. I really thought I was strong. But then again, I truly am weak.
While crying, Ella and others tried to comfort me. They were saying.. Clarisse, kaya mo 'yan! Matapang ka. And I was so melodramatic and I was saying in reply, "'Yon nga eh, 'yon ang akala ko. Pero hindi pala. :((". Tss. It's so dramatic it makes me laugh. ((:
Or maybe that wasn't the only reason why tears were falling down on my face. Maybe it was also because of him. He was there that time. Playing that silly ol' sport, Basketball with his friends. Abraham even asked me this mysterious yet funny question. I said, "Abraham, napilay ako ulit. Umiyak ako." Then he asked me afterwards, "'Yan o dahil sakaniya?" *sabay tingin kay toot* I think I said a bad word to him or something. LMAO.
But I was really trying to forget about him. Trying to stop thinking about him. But the sad truth is, I really can't do it. I guess I still love him. And nothing has changed. Everything is the same.
Despite the fact of many failures, despite those horrible happenings, I will stay happy and optimistic.
Maybe I'm just too strong. Therefore, I became weak.
But I will never call myself as a weak person. Because
even though I am, I still call myself as strong.
Why? (Okay. I know it seems different that I cried but I just can't take it anymore.)
I cried because I fell down. Literally, yes. Because I was running towards the flag pole. My right foot twisted. Uhh, it's really hard to explain. I apologize. I'm not good of a story-teller.
Natapilok ako.
To make the story short.
So yeah. I was like "aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh !&@(#*". I kept on cursing that time. Sorry, sorry. But I just can't help but to do such a thing. I mean, it really hurt. For the second time, this time it hurt much more than the first. No idea why. But I think the difference between the two is that, the first one, my right foot twisted like in the front portion and this time, my foot twisted in the side part. Uhh, apologies, it's really confusing. Last time, I didn't fall. Actually I was able to sit and rest. This time, I fell. I lyed on the ground. Even my head touched the ground. I cried. I was whining, too. Paolo & Divino even laughed at me while I was crying. Harhar.
I guess I cried because of me being weak. I really thought I was strong. But then again, I truly am weak.
While crying, Ella and others tried to comfort me. They were saying.. Clarisse, kaya mo 'yan! Matapang ka. And I was so melodramatic and I was saying in reply, "'Yon nga eh, 'yon ang akala ko. Pero hindi pala. :((". Tss. It's so dramatic it makes me laugh. ((:
Or maybe that wasn't the only reason why tears were falling down on my face. Maybe it was also because of him. He was there that time. Playing that silly ol' sport, Basketball with his friends. Abraham even asked me this mysterious yet funny question. I said, "Abraham, napilay ako ulit. Umiyak ako." Then he asked me afterwards, "'Yan o dahil sakaniya?" *sabay tingin kay toot* I think I said a bad word to him or something. LMAO.
But I was really trying to forget about him. Trying to stop thinking about him. But the sad truth is, I really can't do it. I guess I still love him. And nothing has changed. Everything is the same.
Despite the fact of many failures, despite those horrible happenings, I will stay happy and optimistic.
Maybe I'm just too strong. Therefore, I became weak.
But I will never call myself as a weak person. Because
even though I am, I still call myself as strong.
Labels: vulnerable
Posted on Saturday, October 18, 2008 at 6:21 PM.
