An inseparable tandem.
In my heart, lies a man who would love me until the end of time.
In my heart, lies a man who would love me until the end of time.
you weren't there, you never were.
And now I'm about to express my feelings and tell you how I'm doing right now.
Never thought a tedious day would become a day full of disappointment. I was looking for something to do that time because I was really bored. And suddenly, Ken sent me a message in Y!M. He told me he's got bad news about Hensen. I convinced him to tell me what that was. Then, he told me all about that catastrophe. At first, I didn't care at all. I mean, why should I? But when the story got longer, I didn't expect to forget to breathe. I didn't really forget, I just can't breathe that time. It was like having an asthma attack. Only worse.
My heart was going to explode. But I asked myself, Why should I let it tear into pieces.. Again? It has already torn apart, only scotch-taped back into pieces. I am just hiding the pain that I received because of this disastrous thing that happened. I don't need to cry, my mind told me not to. My heart says, don't give up. However, my head keeps on telling me that I should. I'll just be heartbroken all over and over again. Or maybe we're really just not meant to be.
I want to leave him be. Although, it really is difficult to do so. I need to forget about him and forget all those times we spent together. But it's not easy to do such a thing. Only an idiot can do that. Yes, I've tried moving on a couple of times. What happened? Nothing, nothing at all. My love for him will never change and has never changed. It's the same like before. Unlike other people, I'm different. I know I didn't cry, I didn't yell, and I didn't go crazy. But I assure you, my heart is damaged right at the moment. I am calling for help and I do need people to comfort me.
Well, I have to say, I have no idea what I should do. Some say I should talk to him and tell him how I truly feel. Others told me I should let him go and just give up. Honestly, people know Clarisse. She's a courageous girl who never gives up. I think I'm becoming weak, though. Weaker and weaker, no longer strong. Every time I see him, it's like turning into a vulnerable person. From a person who's strong, only one glance can make him/her vulnerable. That's what I call heartbroken. It's hard to forgive. Also hard to forget. I have to admit though, I am a forgiving person. That's why I don't care who he likes. Because I don't have any rights to choose whom he should love and whom he shouldn't. I can't force him to love me and he can't force me to love him.
I don't have any time left to regret. It happened already, so why should I still whine? And who should I blame? Myself. It's my fault and there is no one to blame. I have been a stupid girl since then. I can't even answer the question why I liked him. I guess I was love-spelled or just plain in love. It's really hard to explain how it happened. It's too fast, after all those months of happiness, peace, and love, there came sadness, war, and pain.
I fell in love with a guy who doesn't care how it hurts. And it's really disheartening to accept the fact that he got tired of a person who still loves him after what he did to that person. People are turning into narcissists nowadays. They turned selfish and vain all of a sudden. They don't care about the feelings of others. They think they're always right and they think they're that special. Most of them are boastful and most of them just don't care about anything. They treat people like pets and slaves. But the thing is, THEY'RE NOT SOME KING/QUEEN that should be worshiped/praised. They're just like everyone else. A human being whom God created. That's that and we should all deal with it.
I don't know what else to say. There are too many words to describe my emotions right now and I can't let them out somewhat. I know you're getting my point. The bottom line is, I should fight for love and I shall never give up. Even though it's a risky thing to do, I'll do everything just to take all of those risks that I'm about to face. Go Clarisse!
DON'T GIVE UP ON LOVE.
HAVE FAITH... RESTART!
Never thought a tedious day would become a day full of disappointment. I was looking for something to do that time because I was really bored. And suddenly, Ken sent me a message in Y!M. He told me he's got bad news about Hensen. I convinced him to tell me what that was. Then, he told me all about that catastrophe. At first, I didn't care at all. I mean, why should I? But when the story got longer, I didn't expect to forget to breathe. I didn't really forget, I just can't breathe that time. It was like having an asthma attack. Only worse.
My heart was going to explode. But I asked myself, Why should I let it tear into pieces.. Again? It has already torn apart, only scotch-taped back into pieces. I am just hiding the pain that I received because of this disastrous thing that happened. I don't need to cry, my mind told me not to. My heart says, don't give up. However, my head keeps on telling me that I should. I'll just be heartbroken all over and over again. Or maybe we're really just not meant to be.
I want to leave him be. Although, it really is difficult to do so. I need to forget about him and forget all those times we spent together. But it's not easy to do such a thing. Only an idiot can do that. Yes, I've tried moving on a couple of times. What happened? Nothing, nothing at all. My love for him will never change and has never changed. It's the same like before. Unlike other people, I'm different. I know I didn't cry, I didn't yell, and I didn't go crazy. But I assure you, my heart is damaged right at the moment. I am calling for help and I do need people to comfort me.
Well, I have to say, I have no idea what I should do. Some say I should talk to him and tell him how I truly feel. Others told me I should let him go and just give up. Honestly, people know Clarisse. She's a courageous girl who never gives up. I think I'm becoming weak, though. Weaker and weaker, no longer strong. Every time I see him, it's like turning into a vulnerable person. From a person who's strong, only one glance can make him/her vulnerable. That's what I call heartbroken. It's hard to forgive. Also hard to forget. I have to admit though, I am a forgiving person. That's why I don't care who he likes. Because I don't have any rights to choose whom he should love and whom he shouldn't. I can't force him to love me and he can't force me to love him.
I don't have any time left to regret. It happened already, so why should I still whine? And who should I blame? Myself. It's my fault and there is no one to blame. I have been a stupid girl since then. I can't even answer the question why I liked him. I guess I was love-spelled or just plain in love. It's really hard to explain how it happened. It's too fast, after all those months of happiness, peace, and love, there came sadness, war, and pain.
I fell in love with a guy who doesn't care how it hurts. And it's really disheartening to accept the fact that he got tired of a person who still loves him after what he did to that person. People are turning into narcissists nowadays. They turned selfish and vain all of a sudden. They don't care about the feelings of others. They think they're always right and they think they're that special. Most of them are boastful and most of them just don't care about anything. They treat people like pets and slaves. But the thing is, THEY'RE NOT SOME KING/QUEEN that should be worshiped/praised. They're just like everyone else. A human being whom God created. That's that and we should all deal with it.
I don't know what else to say. There are too many words to describe my emotions right now and I can't let them out somewhat. I know you're getting my point. The bottom line is, I should fight for love and I shall never give up. Even though it's a risky thing to do, I'll do everything just to take all of those risks that I'm about to face. Go Clarisse!
DON'T GIVE UP ON LOVE.
HAVE FAITH... RESTART!
Posted on Sunday, November 9, 2008 at 1:28 PM.
