It has been a week since the last incident happened. I can't forget the time Ken told me about the news. I can still recall all those happenings. I want to confront him. The problem is, I don't know how to do it. Every time I see him, I ignore him immediately. However, I want to tell him all the things I want to let him know. I want him to know that I still love him. That I'll be here, I'll be waiting. I want to give up. But somehow, I can't lose hope. I know that I'm just a girl in despair waiting for that guy to love me back. And I'm certain that it's impossible. I'm going to be strong, though. Even though I look insane in front of all those people. I will be hiding my love. If only he knows how much I love him.

And there was not even a time that I regret loving him.

I know he's not Mr. Right. He's not perfect. But I don't care what you guys say about him. I have my own rights to pick who I should love. I still love him no matter what. Besides, who said I don't love him anymore? Him, her? Them? If you think I stopped loving you, think again. My love will still be here. Uh-oh, you can't force me not to love you, darling. 'Cause I'm out of control. And I'm difficult to handle. Seriously, I'm confused. I can't get out of this problem. My brain's going to explode only because of thinking. Thinking of what decision I should pick. I need to choose the right decision I should make. I'm not really a good decision-maker. But I really should pick the right one. Although, it's not that easy to make the right decision. I need someone. Someone who could pick a decision for me.

I'm scared. Scared that I might pick the wrong decision. Help.

Forever and ever, babe. <3

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Hello. To fill up this empty space so as to make this profile look good, you are going to hear me talk about my life. I study in Mother Goose Special School System Inc. and I really love Kitkat&Toblerone&Ferrero Rocher chocolates. I find myself fat but they all tell me I'm skinny. I'm into a lot of genres of music; it's either metal, hiphop or classical. I had this long-time crush on Chuck Bass of this series, Gossip Girl. Apparently, I still adore him and I cannot stop hyperventilating whenever I see his face on anything. I hate narcissists. Yes, I tend to be vain at times, too. But I could control it.. I think.

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2. You don’t listen to her, you don’t care how it hurts.
3. I think I need to read more often.
4. Just my luck
5. This will surely make your world spin.
6. CrushCrushCrush.
7. Let's try turning off the lights.
8. Funny facts about the one and only Clarisse
9. So-called sembreak.
10. Last United Nations & Halloween.

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3. May 2008
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It has been a week since the last incident happened. I can't forget the time Ken told me about the news. I can still recall all those happenings. I want to confront him. The problem is, I don't know how to do it. Every time I see him, I ignore him immediately. However, I want to tell him all the things I want to let him know. I want him to know that I still love him. That I'll be here, I'll be waiting. I want to give up. But somehow, I can't lose hope. I know that I'm just a girl in despair waiting for that guy to love me back. And I'm certain that it's impossible. I'm going to be strong, though. Even though I look insane in front of all those people. I will be hiding my love. If only he knows how much I love him.

And there was not even a time that I regret loving him.

I know he's not Mr. Right. He's not perfect. But I don't care what you guys say about him. I have my own rights to pick who I should love. I still love him no matter what. Besides, who said I don't love him anymore? Him, her? Them? If you think I stopped loving you, think again. My love will still be here. Uh-oh, you can't force me not to love you, darling. 'Cause I'm out of control. And I'm difficult to handle. Seriously, I'm confused. I can't get out of this problem. My brain's going to explode only because of thinking. Thinking of what decision I should pick. I need to choose the right decision I should make. I'm not really a good decision-maker. But I really should pick the right one. Although, it's not that easy to make the right decision. I need someone. Someone who could pick a decision for me.

I'm scared. Scared that I might pick the wrong decision. Help.

Forever and ever, babe. <3

Labels: importance of love